The last road..

Today my grandfa will become part of the earth... I`m very sad, now I realise tgat he is gone, he is gone forever... Now I want to exist a God, the greatest God who promise us the Heaven. My grandfa was a very good person, he akways loved me, loved my mother, loved my sister.... He was a very funny person...
I need to add that in my childhood I was very isolated, I was very unsociable because my friends called me "The mute" because my grandfather was mute, but this created betwen me and him a very stron relationship... he was always crying when I was cryind, I was always crying when he was crying...
In the past... no, I don`t think that I should talk to the past because he`s spirit is here, in my heart, in my mind... it`s something wath I can`t describe because .....it`s something divine...
In know that I`m an atheist, or I beleve that I`m an atheist but it most be something there, something, greater than us...
Anyway, yesterday the priest came in our house and said something abot the "second life", but how hard I wanted to beleve, I couln`t` believe...
Now I`m preparing to drive my grandfather to the last road... the last road... it sounds so bizare.. how can this be the last road... Albert Einstein said that nothing`s loosing, everything is changing... that means that he still exists?... sure that exists, but I`m referinf if he exists spiritualy..?
Yeah... al that question are driving us to the supreme question.... "There is God?"